This is a rainy day out the window cars swoosh and splash past my picnic is rained out. My play now is lifeguarding and teaching kids swimming in indoor pools though still no notice that I should come in today has given me free time. Graduating from college has given me a great deal of free time. I woke up, thus, at 12:30ish, made love, and now am hungry. I sit in a towel in the living room.
I've begun filling out an application for the Peace Corps. The prospect of leaving New York City is a vast temptation. As nature would call I feel a great 22 year old wanderlust rising up from within me. Some of the most beautiful and important people to me have been instrumental in helping me realize that New York is a cybershitbrick of a machine. What of the vast fields, jungles, deserts, oceans? The summer has led me away from here, and yet I am still here. So I examine options.
Soon I will no longer have a base in Newton, MA, either. My mother and step-father are moving from there, for now Allison is in college and they live alone in that cardboardhideout. They'll get a new one bedroom near their MGH in Cambridge and live full-time in the house in North Scituate, Rhode Island. This is 15 minutes outside Providence, where Allison has started college at Johnson and Whales Culinary Institute.
My other sister is going to end herself up in California. What if I go there? What about Habitat for Humanity or TESOL? What if I actually could fix up that VW bug in DC and get it rolling hot on the pavement? My Kerouacian soul still pounds and for four years it spewed on this one rock called Manhattan but that soul is too far reaching fast moving for one rock. Really the whole planet is one rock.
My father is single and traveling, exactly in the way I wish to. He of course has the funds to allow this while I have none to allow for the tundras, forests, mountains, etc. He climbed Kilimanjaro. Soon I reckon he'll buy a sailboat and do at least the Carribean and Mediterranean, I hope Indonesia too. Perhaps this is only a dream.
If I raise a family in the next ten years, I won't have such freedom for thirty. I am in no condition. I want to play sports. Music. I want to leave. I want money. I want money gone. I want to devote my life to a goal, not a trade.
